I’ve never written a blog before but I felt this is needed. I am going to document my journey of mistakes that I’ve made that have led me up to my crime. Today is June 23, 2021, it’s my 45th birthday. My wife had put together a nice dinner for me and had a very small group of family and friends over. My wife is the most beautiful person in the world. I admire her with all respect and I love her to no end. 
Throughout my blog postings I am going to go over in detail the mistakes that I’ve made, and the humiliation and the devastation that I brought to my victims and my family. I will work endlessly for the rest of my life to never make these mistakes again. This is certainly not what I envisioned, it’s not the legacy I wish to leave behind to my family and friends, especially my wife. I have ultimately no one to blame but myself and this is a very rude awakening. It’s not the end of my life, it’s the beginning of my redemption.  Hopefully I can earn a bit of trust but more importantly look at myself in the mirror to be confident and proud of who I am. thank you for reading this and going through my journey